Stirings

Deep down inside something is stering

What i'm not sure feelings

Are flowing some were i see

It seams I have some deep down somewere

What do we know of what we feel inside

All is diffrent i see some have pain

and thats there bodys way to cope

some feel nothing and this is hard

i feel it is you hurt me but dont know what to say

I feel it when you love me that I see

But as with all we feel mine has got deep down inside

I am trying to understand what it wants me to do

It was there some years ago now i am stuck

in a world of confusion

 

Nicky

 

Please if this says anything to you please leave feedback

 

Love and hugs

xxxx

Feelings

What do i do this is me, 

Empty,

 feelings are meant to be what drives you  

But were are mine i do not know

You ask me to talk but how

I have been closed for so long

I don't know were to begin

Please let this be the start as i cant 

go on like it no more,

 If there is a way now is when

 I need it the most.

I know we all have feelings,

And one day ill be able to show mine.

Nicky

 

 

Lost but not forgotten

The days are long and hard

you left me stranded 

on this side of life

How do i manage without you

i try and talk to others but it 

wont leave my mouth

i did not think it would be so hard

talk is all they say but how 

when you were the only one to 

get me and know what i felt

i miss you so much it

hearts 

we all have to try to get on 

having your baby's around dose help

but we all think your around the corner 

love ya always Cath.

Daddy we love

You are the best man in the world,

No child could ask for better,

You know how to cheer us up no matter 

What the problem,

He took you from us before we 

could say our goodbyes,

Then when we came home it was 

too hard to do,

When i saw you lying there i thought 

You was sleeping,

But i touched your hand 

And so cold you were i knew at last

They all told the truth,

That your beloved god had done the 

Wrong thing by taking you away.

Why daddy did he do this to you

of all the pepole in this world,

He took the wrong man,

No matter how long i live i will 

Never say goodbye,

As you will always be with me 

Till my dieing day.

I love you daddy

Welcome

Welcome to the Red Shadows

This is were i will add all forms of writing.

The first piece is the last thing i wrote 10 years ago it was after losing my dad i stopped writing, And only a few months ago i lost my best friend of 32 years and i have always been a closed person which is not doing me any good at the mo i am pushing my loved ones away and not asking for help.

So i have decided to try and right in a blog.

Thank you for coming along and please leave you comments as i love to see how you all take it.

Love and hugs Nicky. 

xxxx